It’s 2:30 in the morning and I cannot sleep. Simply put there is just too much going on in my mind. I have this problem all the time, it seems that when I lay down I just can’t go to sleep. The worst part is this is such good inspiration for writing, but I’m so unfocused that I can’t write a descent sentence. I think that is more frustrating to me than not being able to sleep. I have a very vivid scene in my mind, and no way to give it life with my words. I think this mirrors the frustrations I face during the day as well. Sometimes I let my mind get in the way of things, always thinking too much about stuff, over thinking things, dwelling on stuff.
There is a message I mean to put here, I just can’t seem to be eloquent in my writing. Things are just bothering me, and I think that is affecting everything around me right now. I’m frustrated, and I don’t really have any way to let that out. The more I sit in the darkness the less that gets done, and I realize now that I just don’t really have anything important to pass along with this, other than to hear the sound of my keyboard as I type. It could be that I’m just sleepy, and irritated about the fact that when I do lay down things won’t be just right for me to go to sleep and I’ll spend an hour trying to force myself to fall asleep despite being tired. Maybe it’s other things that are keeping me up and I’m just not acknowledging them. Either way this is a pointless exercise.
