There is always an interesting period when you meet someone new in which you are constantly wondering what is going to happen. There is nothing that ever says anything is definite, no matter how amazing things are going. I’ve heard of people being almost absolutely head over heels for someone, and then suddenly that person does this one little thing that changes everything. I’m unsure what it is about meeting new people that makes most people this way, almost like we are expecting the worst thing possible to happen and because of that we focus on the negative. What really makes me wonder about this is I remember reading in some article somewhere that most couples have at least ten things at any one time in their relationship they don’t agree with each other on. These could be very simple, like who should be the next person to take out the trash, or very complex issues based on morality or beliefs.

What I find strange about this is how as we develop in a relationship with someone, we tend to start seeing past their flaws and start focusing on the good things. Another article I read said that most long-lasting relationships all have one thing in common: both partners are completely in awe of each other. So it doesn’t matter that we can’t see eye to eye on some things because I simply adore you so much that it doesn’t matter to me. That says a lot to me about the power of the heart, and why it is so important to recognize what you are feeling.

That brings me back to the beginning of a relationship. It is so difficult to know what is going on in the mind of the other person. At some point, you just want to ask them how they feel, just be direct with it and find out. Then the fear of the answer comes into play, or the fear of frightening the person away. I’m afraid I am finding myself in this situation, and I am unsure of what to do! I must admit though, it is an exhilarating experience. The more time I spend with this person, the more I see them, the more I can feel myself slipping into the slight delirium of adoration. However, I have troubled thoughts regarding this person’s feelings towards me.

Obviously the only answer right now is to continue to do things as I always have, and see what develops. It’s just an amazingly nerve-racking experience, and I don’t think I’d have it any other way.

This, and more, at Synaptic Thought.