Yesterday at work was such a beautifully busy day. I really like the days where I have a clear cut task that has to be accomplished and a tight deadline to work under. I develop so much focus when those factors are in play. I’m pretty sure that is why I did most of my papers in college at the last minute, because I work best like that. Sometimes having an open ended job can be a little discouraging. Finding work for oneself is difficult in that when I really don’t want to do something, I can almost get away with not doing it.

I think that is why I miss doing IT support work sometimes. There was always a current problem, something that needed to be fixed as soon as possible at that moment. It may be as simple as walking across to another building and kicking a computer a couple of times, but for that moment in time that was all that existed in my world. I’m sure if I were back in that realm of work I wouldn’t enjoy it as much as I claim I do. It is pretty easy to develop a fantasy in which things are always greener on the other side of the fence.

Lately life has been so busy I haven’t really had time for much of anything. Between school and work, I get home pretty late and don’t really have the drive or energy to do anything. I’m sure this is just a phase I’m going through, and if there is any time in my life to dedicate to being focused on getting stuff done at work or in school it would be now. I keep wondering what next year will be like though, or five years from now, or ten. I hope I’m not in the same place, doing the same things. I’m determined to make my life a livable adventure.

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