Over the last few days, or weeks, I’ve been having some great conversations with people. Most people who meet me will first realize that I tend to be very shy around people. I think that stems from me actually being shy, and from me wanting to feel people out, to observe them and see how they react to certain things. One of the reasons I believe I do this is that when I do get comfortable around someone I can be a lot to handle. I have a very sharp, sarcastic wit that sometimes drives people away, so I try to avoid being myself when I first meet someone until they have had a chance to get to know me.
It is because I am shy and have had problems with people being able to handle me, that I normally am not very social. I develop a close group of one or two people I talk to, and I am pretty content with them. Even then, sometimes, it is too much for me and I’ll spend some time in solitary, just having time to myself where I can reflect and think, or just be by myself.
Lately, however, I have been talking to a few people that have just made my day. I’ve spent a lot of time checking Twitter, and Myspace, and Facebook, just enjoying the fun conversations that I have had. There is something great about talking to a new person and getting to know them. Or having a fun, playful, conversation back and forth with someone. Before people take offense, let me clarify, I am this way with all of my friends that I talk to on a regular basis, but it is really cool to have added a few people to the fold.
Along with good conversation, this is awakening my thoughts and I have begun to really look at myself. I enjoy the fact that someone can make me think about things, and that I think about them when I think about those things. As convoluted as that sounds, it makes sense to me. And with great conversation comes great possibility. For what? Who knows, but the door is always open.
I hope that everyone has opportunities such as these that I have discovered in their own lives.
Read more of my ramblings at Synaptic Thought.
