Ever just woke up and know that today was going to be a day in which you regretted waking up? That’s where I am right now. I could actually remember what I dreamed about this morning, which really didn’t make me feel any better because they were about stuff that I really didn’t want to think about. It is cruel how the mind works. You can make yourself not think about something, but you are still really thinking about it so when you get a chance to slip it back into the foreground of all your thoughts, there it is, staring you in the face. So I woke up in an off mood this morning because of cruel dreams that taunt me with the truth. Always in your dreams things are the way you want them, and that is great, except when you are aware enough to realize you are dreaming while you dream. Then you know it isn’t real, but you still keep dreaming because somehow you think it will be worth that few seconds of confusion when you wake up. You know what I am talking about, when you wake up and you are just coming to and your dream hits you, but you don’t quite remember it as a dream, you think it really happened. Then it hits you, and it’s like this huge let down. But maybe if I wish on a star my dreams will come true.
My nephew is back in the hospital again. The poor boy, he has missed so much school, and his first day back he gets a bad coughing fit and things just go downhill from there. I assume that is adding to my overall funky mood. But, things will get better. They always do. I remember a song I heard a long time ago, called “What a difference a day makes.” It was a Christian song, talking about how things can be bad in the night, but when morning comes everything gets better. The song is important to me, because every time I am going through something that is troubling me a great deal, the day I wake up singing that song I know things will be ok, and that God has his hand in my life. I know what you are thinking, but it really does. In the times I have been in the most pain, and heartbroken, I will wake up and realize that the pain doesn’t hurt so much any more, and that broken hearts mend, and that a day can make all the difference in the world.
