So here is the deal…I leave Thursday morning, about 4:00 am to go to the Macon airport. From there we fly to Atlanta, have a layover of a couple of hours, then from there go to Shreveport. My dad will pick us up and we’ll make the drive back to DeRidder. I’ll be gone till Saturday night, very, very late. I’ll have my cell phone with me, and I’ll be able to check my email about once or twice a day.

I’m about exhausted. Today was the first day in a long time I just sorta laid my head down in class and didn’t take notes or really pay attention. I’m not physically tired, but I’ve got so much stuff going on right now that my mind is about to implode. One of my professors told me I looked drained, and I feel that way. I need some rest. Maybe I’ll be able to get a little bit while I am gone, but I doubt it. I’m still ok with what is going on, for the most part. I went out and sat by the pond for a few minutes today and just kinda listened to the stillness and thought about everything, not just my grandpa, but about everything going on in my life. Of course, I didn’t come to any major revelations about anything, which I am used to, so it will all just pile up in my mental list of unfinished business. I’m rather upset with extended family right now. They are acting like…words I can’t say here. One of my uncles in particular, is treating my father so bad. Keeps telling him he’s an outsider and has no right to say anything about anything. Which is ironic, cause this is the uncle that nobody has seen in ages, and my dad has done more for my grandfather than most of his real children did. Especially this uncle. But me and my brother have already been told to just let things go, and not to say anything. I guess my dad realizes that if my uncle pushes me too much, he’ll end behind the funeral home as a lumpy mess. I can’t stand it how that side of the family acts, it’s so pathetic. Anyway, I’m more upset about the way they are acting than I am about the funeral. I don’t know how I’ll feel once I get there, right now I am disconnected and far away. Things may come into sharper view when I actually get there. Well, I am at work, so I better finish this up. I think I’m just going to sit here today and kinda try and relax a little bit. I’ve got a million things to get done after work and I don’t know if I’ll finish them up and still get to bed at a decent hour.